Monday, April 25, 2011

It's Raining... again...

I may not have mentioned this before, but I HATE THE FREAKING RAIN!!!!  Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love a good raging thunder storm, and I'm well aware that rain is a good thing... especially for those of us in the farming regions where a lack of rain can create shortages of food for both people and animals... but I detest nasty, gray, dreary, Eeyore rainy days!!!  These are the days that seem to be plaguing my community this spring and today is definitely a prime example.

These days are heavy, depressing, irritating and gross and they tend to leave me feeling exactly the same.  I'm not at all creative or productive either in my job or my personal pursuits, and they tend to affect my children in the same way... that of course just spells disaester (yes I know it's spelled incorrectly, but I'm not in any frame of mind to hit the spell check key so live with it) for all of us as we're trapped together with no way out.

This of course wasn't supposed to be the topic of today's blog post.  I had something cheerful and witty in mind originally, and then I went to the Dr and had a conversation with a nurse that inspired a wonderful blog on the topic of sarcastic wit, but the weather has drained all those thoughts and replaced them with the simple thoughts I just typed out... and seeing as I'm on the library's one hour policy at the moment that all you're getting today.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Apparently I'm Peculiar...

This I'm sure surprises no one who knows me at all.  I'm not, and have never been, a round peg kind of girl.  My beliefs are ecclectic, my tastes are ecclectic... except for my taste in food and in that case if it's not plain hamburger, grilled chicken breast, a steak filet, or albacore then chances are I won't eat it.  Especially if it has some sort of sauce, gravy, or flourish to it...  Long story short I'm not a person that you can meet once, look at, and proceed assuming you know anything about me.

One of the things I'm a little peculiar about is, I have been told anyway, my tendency to collect people.  I love people in general, probably why I like working retail, and there are just some people who almost immediately capture some little piece of my heart.  There isn't much I wouldn't do for anyone who treats me decent, but for these particular people I would do anything... pretty much without limitation or question.  Not because I want, or expect, something in return, but because for whatever reason doing something that makes them happy, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, makes ME happy.  That's it, end of story, no ulterior motives, intricate plans, or perverted notions...

Doing something nice for someone that my gut instinct tells me deserves it.. apparently that makes me peculiar... and actually, I'm really okay with that :)

Sunday, April 3, 2011

What to do, what to do....

I am currently experiencing a milestone in life.  Tomorrow or whoever their actually fiduciary douches are will begin the process of direct depositing my first royalty check!  It's for January sales on both my self-published Kindle books (Saving Alexandria and Guardian of Dreams... hint hint hint) and it's a whopping $20.93... but yet it's MY $20.93 earned in royalties on something I wrote and published and people cared enough to buy. 

This, like the publishing process itself, is exciting and at the same time terrifying.  Where do I go from here?  There are more books to come, some finished, some nearly finished, some barely begun, and without a publisher I can make them available at my leisure.  So again I ask, where do I go from here?  I have someone who has offered to help me develop a "web presence" which sounds extremely intriguing and yet terrifying at the same time. 

The ultimate question is how far do I want to put myself out there?  On the one hand I have had very modest, yet fairly consistent sales over the past three months with absolutely no marketing whatsoever.  I periodically post the links to the e-books on my Facebook page and I've put them here in my blog a couple of times.  On the other hand is the idea that if I take a chance and get my name out there not only will it generate sales, but could ultimately make my writing more appealing to conventional agents and publishers.

So the elephant in the room is the question of whether or not I want to put myself out there full Monty and undertake the lofty goal of actually marketing myself and advertising my books.  That's the elephant... the gigantic steaming pile of elephant poop is the idea that I will put myself out there, advertise, market, all in all make a spectical of myself and end up with the same modest sales I have had all along... or even better no more sales.

So speak to me great advisors and speakers of wisdom...  I can't be who I'm not, and most people don't have a clue how to take me... do I really want to throw that out there for the whole world to see??  Or for the whole world to point, laugh at and ultimately shun?? LOL